How this affects my life and maybe yours.

This might apply to you or not but this is my experience dealing with this horrible but fulfilling ailment. I will get to the fulfilling part later.

I have dealt with this going on now 20 years or so, and denied it for 18 of those. Always thinking I just had to pull myself up by my bootstraps, I could get over it, I could I could I could. Finally after being hospitalized somewhere around 10 times over the years in denial, call me dumb, but I figured it out.

I see people and chat with some that are struggling just like I am. That is the reason I started this blog site. I have no money so I had to use a free internet site like wix. I am not by any means knocking them, but I needed to get my word out so maybe, just maybe I can help someone else out there. I know I am not alone, but sometimes it feels like I am on an island alone. Hopefully over time I can reach out to you and you me.

Next week CHRISTmas is going to be a hard week. And as much as I pray and prepare for it, this crap kicks in. This is my introduction to you. This will be my daily journal for all the world to see and hope truly it helps someone. And follow or friend me on the links provided. I will be back tomorrow evening. Merry CHRISTmas all. I look forward to tomorrow, God willing.