Another day of Ups and Downs Which I am going to write a book about. But not here Uwillfind out soon

Okay yesterday I got to go over to a very dear friend of mine and help her out. You over time will figure out who she is. She is a wonderful, sweet hard working lady. Talking to her face to face made my day.

Sometimes in life little and I mean little things make this life we have. But those of us that suffer from this (pardon my language) damn thing, I like most hide it and don't want empathy or sympathy, I want it to be gone. Now I am venting. Damn this shit sucks and I am confident when I go to bed but wake up with nightmares. Missing my children and hoping I will get to see them someday again. Dang I love them so much and this time of year is so so so so terrible.

On the bright side I got a job today, its part time but oh well at least that and food stamps will help me.

I know I say I want to be an inspiration to you, but I also said I am not going to sugar coat this.

It sucks. I know intimately. But guess what I keep getting up something as simple as putting my shoes on in the morning I keep trudging on. I sure hope you do. And please share so we can somewhat heal!! If you have this you know what that last statement means. Love you!!!!